Sunday, December 24, 2006


Aftermath of a hurricane...
Current mood: worried
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

Everyday I live in the aftermath of a hurricane...

It takes time to rebuild...anything...everything...be it a home, a relationship, your love or your life. And when you lose it all, to rebuild it becomes the biggest challenge you shall ever face!
It takes patience, perseverence, dedication, love, determination, every ounce of energy you have within you to draw out the strength that lies somewhere deep inside.
You work everyday toward the goals you set for yourself...to rebuild your life...your home...your love...relationships with those you care for most...you set some big, some small and then there are all those itty bitty ones you must reach just to get to your ultimate goal.
Many obstacles arise...only to hold you back or hold you down...make you feel as though there is no end to the chaos...no light at the end of the tunnel...no way to get there from here.
But each obstacle is only a test...a test of your strength...a test of your dedication...perhaps even a test of your character...obstacles asking questions...how much do you desire this goal that you are striving to attain? Are you certain beyond the shadow of a doubt this is what you want?
Some obstacles may be put there to show you a different path to get to where you want to be...to show you a different way to rebuild something...perhaps to help you build it stronger or more beautiful.
Other obstacles may be there to show you that you are going in the wrong direction...telling you to turn back...because you have already walked this road...find a different way.
Some may just be telling you it is time to rest for a short period...regroup...get things back in order...build up your strength for the next obstacle shall be larger and you will need more strength than for the last one...
Every night you think yourself to sleep...wondering what the events of the next day shall unfold...you wake every morning, reach inside and pull out whatever strength you can find to get yourself through the day...and somehow you mangage it...once again!
You make changes...you learn...you grow...day in and day out...for many months...that turn into a year and more...events transpire everyday...some good, some bad...some you see making changes before your eyes, others you cannot see the changes they are making...no that is left for the future to tell...
Some people stand by you thru the pain and heartache...most just don't seem to care nor believe in you and just walk away...
New people come into your life, some leave, others stay. Somehow each of these people have made a change in you...a change that has helped you to grow or to think differently...every person you meet affects you in some manner whether you realize it or not...
One day you wake to find yourself right smack dab in the middle of the transformation...suddenly wondering how it is you got here after all you have been through...after all the bad, upsetting things that have transpired...this is when you realize that something good can come from bad events...something good can come from your suffering and you have not suffered in vain...
Perhaps it was the only way for you to get where you needed to be as a person...perhaps it was a small part of your destiny...you would not be who you are today without having experienced all that you have been through...you would not know the strength you hold inside you had you never been made to find it...
You reach that ultimate goal...the challenge of your life...only to find yourself living in the aftermath of a hurricane...



What is "life" anyway...but one BIG game...
Current mood: geeky
Category: Life

So...whats this "game" thing everyone talks about???
"No games please"
Doesn't anyone know that LIFE is nothing but one BIG game?
EVERYONE is playing
We're all just a card in the deck!
Sometimes your the KING other times just the deuce
You could be the OLD MAID
Get slapped like JACK
Sometimes all hell breaks loose and it becomes WAR!
BRIDGEs can be built & burned & rebuilt
Sometimes you win and sometimes you lose!
Sometimes you wanna play and other times you don't!
Some can play nice & others try to cheat
It can be fun and it can be really awful!
But in the game of LIFE...you really don't have much choice...
LIFE is somewhat of an attraction!
A rollercoaster ride!
It can excite you!
It can scare the beejeezers outta ya!
Make you laugh, cry, scream & shout
But once you are in the game you don't have a choice...
just hang on...
cuz yer goin for the ride...
all the ups and downs it brings...
like it or not!
Then...you could just play TENNIS
and look for that zero score!

Wednesday, November 15, 2006


Well...that's what fertilizer is for...

Remember, when you get crapped on, it gives you fuel for life!

These were the words from my friend Pete tonight in a conversation as he was trying so hard to bring this wilting WildFlower back to life...

He is so sweet n wonderful on these many cranky days it seems I have been having...he is...sort of a nerd...very intelligent...and cute too...but he tries to be funny...which doesn't always work for him...at least not with me anyway...I mostly roll my eyes at his many failed attempts...

But tonight he got the best of my pessimistic way! So much for dying wildflowers! Just throw a lil crap their way and see how much stronger they grow back...

So here is where I realized that all this CRAP that has been thrown my way over the past couple weeks...several months actually...has not really been choking the life out of me as I thought...NO...it is fueling up my soul!! And here I thought my soul was starving...boy was I ever mistaken!!! I'm getting more nourishment than a whole field of wildflowers would need to grow...

Now...to find that "woohoohoo" (as my friend Scott puts it) that is inside me somewhere...presumably buried deeply under all the crap! The hard part is not really the shoveling of the crap but absorbing the nourishment it has to offer...one could assume that a bowl of attitude for breakfast would be much tastier than a bowl of crap...however...be careful...we all know the deal with assuming! So, perhaps we should stop making asses of ourselves and just take the CRAP!

So in the morning I'm gonna take my bowl of crap absorb its nutrients and GROW!


Tuesday, November 14, 2006


Monday, October 23, 2006


Life ain't always beautiful...But...it's a Beautiful Life!!!
Current mood: lonely
Category: Life

Nope...LIFE AIN'T ALWAYS BEAUTIFUL...sometimes life brings us down...brings sadness, pain and heartache...scares the beejeezers outta us...damages or hurts us in some manner...be it physical or emotional...

THEN...then there is this thing called BALANCE...

but...IT'S A BEAUTIFUL LIFE....sometimes life brings us up...brings happiness, joy, excitement, love and fulfullment...scares the beejeezers outta us...yet heals us in some manner be it physical or emotional...

We take risks everyday of our lives...sometimes physical, sometimes emotional...sometimes we are aware of our risk taking and other times we may not be...

We take risks that may hurt us...risks that may heal us...ones that bring pain or joy...love or sadness...happiness or fulfillment...but we take them...and even at the moments we decide NOT to take a risk...still we are...

The very moment we decide NOT to RISK our battered HEARTS to LOVE...we are taking a RISK...we risk losing something that could be the most beautiful thing that ever came into our lives!

We should RISK it! We shall heal...life finds a way...

Life ain't always beautiful...but....it's a BEAUTIFUL LIFE!!!

LIVE IT FOR ALL YOU CAN!!!

If you always...
June 3, 2006

Thought for the Day!
Current mood: calm
Category: Writing and Poetry

"If you always do what you've always done...you'll always get what you've always got!"

ALL things happen for a reason! Each of these experiences have a lesson to offer us...if only we would open our mind & soul to learning each lesson!

When things seem to always stay the same...even though the scenery has changed...this is because we continue to take the same actions, expecting different results!

We all have some level of risk taking inside us...however we somehow choose to use this wonderful, powerful talent in a manor that only keeps us from being fully alive!

Kelly Clarkson says it well....

"TAKE A RISK, TAKE A CHANCE, MAKE A CHANGE........AND BREAK AWAY!!!!!!!!"