Internet Dating








I have been out here on and off for just over 3 years now...i think...havent really been keeping track of it. (am I supposed to keep track of that?) I have not been in a relationship in just over 2 years...which isn't really a bad thing...at least I have not fallen into a "bad" relationship again "and" it gauges the many changes I have made in the choices I make when it comes to men.

I have jumped from site to site...looking for "that one guy"...have seen many of the same faces from site to site...which worries me about how many people are still single and looking after all this time...however at least I know for fact I am "not" the only one and don't have to ask!

I can't say that I have been seriously looking tho...just mostly putting myself out here, just in case "he's" out here too...after all how are you to find each other if you both are never in the same place at the same time? Live in different cities. If you always go left and he goes right? Reflecting back upon my journey through the world of internet dating...I feel I have learned so much...about myself and others...

Over the past 3 years I have learned alot and changed alot! I now know that in the beginning I probably really wasn't quite ready for "that one guy"! NOW, he's probably not ready for "ME"! LOL Which leads me to believe that there very well may be many people out there who are not yet ready...even though, they may think they are...

It also makes me wonder why some of these people haven't changed thier picture after 1 or 2 years...??? Personally I feel if you are going to be on a "dating" site...you should have a photo that is within at least the past six months...(just my opinion)...my photos are generally within a period of wayyy less than six months...sometimes within a week...besides my hair is much longer than it was six months ago anyway! Why "not" change it?

I have talked to many, made some friends, met a few...learned that I "just attract" men who drive red vehicles...been contacted on messenger by wayyyyy too many who just want sex...ohhh...they are just SO FUN!!! HAHAHA....generally within five minutes of sex being mentioned...they no longer "want" to talk to "me"...hehe:D

One thing I can say is that the internet itself has helped me with my self-esteem (just so you know, I had "none" to start with) people who meet me these days cannot believe I was "ever" shy a day in my life...The most important lesson I have ever learned is "how to be myself!"

I have learned to be who I am and express it in real life. Not just on here...I can now talk to strangers face to face...and not be timid or shy! Just last week I walked into a place full of strangers...and talked to lots of people I have never met and felt confident! A very long way from where I was 3 years ago...

This internet dating thing has helped me to realize that just because someone don't like me does not mean there is anything wrong with "me"...(okay, maybe I "could" be a lil fk'd up) It's just that some people click with you and others dont...just as in the real world...sometimes I like people I work with and then there are those I don't!

No sense being upset because some guy I went on a few dates with has rejected me...obviously we were not meant for each other. Take if for what it is and just maybe you could have a new friend...no reason to go 5150 and become the poor guys newest stalker!

There is no reason to be shy...all the world is a stage and we are merely the actors...someone somewhere will see me at my best and at my worst...and if someone cannot accept me for "all that I am" then they are not meant to be in my world! And I have found who my "true" internet friends are during some of my lowest times! They are the ones who are still with me today...when I am happy inside! Despite all my "ups & downs"!

At this particular moment in life I am actually quite content with just "me"! Being single isn't "all" that bad...I have friends who love me...I have all my time for what I want (my goals, hopes & dreams)...no one to "try" controlling me...(which never works out well for them anyway) But...I keep myself out here just in case, "he" is out here too..........

And....that's all I have to say about that!